Much of the evening tonight I spent re-reading personal journals, covering the last 6 months or so, and doing a lot of thinking. I’ve heard a couple of people in recent days state that I’ve let anxiety get to me too much, negatively so. But what I read of my own private, personal thoughts for the last several months doesn’t sound anxiety-stricken to me.

It sounds pissed. Quite often because people weren’t listening to me, and/or were dismissing me.

I was checking out the nifty feature on imood.com where you can look at a chart of how often you’ve selected each emotion over the entire time you’ve had your imood account. Each emotion is listed, and if you click on it, it gives you the dates you chose that particular emotion & whatever extra comments you made at the time.

My chart sure is interesting.

I’ve had my imood account about 2 years now, and there are 127 different emotions listed. Of those, I’ve only chosen 25 emotions more than twice. And the most common ones I’ve used to describe my mood?

Exhausted - 9
Annoyed - 8
Cranky - 7
Curious - 5
Pissed - 5
Somber - 5
Blah - 4
Drained - 4
Fine - 4
Frustrated - 4
Irked - 4
Mixed - 4
Pensive - 4
Vexed - 4

Gee, I’m seeing a trend here.

And how often have I chosen “anxious” to describe my mood? Three whole times, and once was anxiety over my last job interview (which I aced, so it obviously didn’t affect me negatively). I haven’t picked the term “anxious” to describe my frame of mind at imood since last Nov. 9th, actually.

Wow, that’s really not much in the way of anxiety. It looks like mostly I’ve been various flavors of angry: annoyed, cranky, pissed, frustrated, irked, vexed.

Today’s the first time I’ve chosen the adjective “burned” since I started the imood account. Maybe I should change it to “enlightened.”